Honestly, would you believe, we crossed the world while it's asleep...

~ more Paramore ... I’m such a “Parawhore”

These last 2 weeks have been crazy. It's still weird to see Drew's MSN pop up and for me not to jump to message him. Weird, but bearable.

I did try to talk to him during last week - I suppose I had hoped we could talk it out and try again; it failed epically. He's not interested. I haven't talked to him since. I could stay in a group conversation with him if I get added, and I can post stuff on his Facebook, but direct chat isn't going to happen.

I was a little disturbed today. Clea came up to me at break saying she overheard I had gotten dumped.... Whut? How does she know? Who was talking about it this morning? I have only told Kat and Maxi from the school... right? It's not that I mind people knowing, I don't, it's something that happened, but I wonder what people are saying? Why do they care enough to talk about it? They didn't know Drew, so it's not 'gossip' in the classic sense. So whut? A small mystery...

I have been a little off recently. Defiantly having difficulty concentrating on working. Nothing has been late or anything, not really. I did miss a couple of journals, I blame this on being sick - Mr Levi allowed nothing for my illness --something just died outside the classroom I swear-- but I managed to bring my mark back up in English for my midterms by making my ISU conference. My marks did drop in all of my subjects and I'm not happy. Luckily ISU time has arrived, and I'm going to be able to bring my marks back up. I'm really unhappy about what happened, but now is defiantly the time to put personal life aside and hit the books. "Personal time" will in future be my Original Writing for Writers Craft, and every other moment needs to be spent on History and Law. History in Particular - the other 3 are okay, but not good enough.

Funny thing about my weirdness with working; I may not feel like working for so long, but then suddenly I will go on a study spree, working like crazy. This happened last night after Kat went home; I made up a presentation (notes which took me a week to put together during 'not working' period) and wrote half an essay that's due at the end of the week.

Anyway, life is weird and I feel illllllllllllll. I'm gonna go die in bed. PEACE x