Gonna Dance the Night Away

Happy New Years everyone!

OOOOOOK

hm where to begin? Boy troubles sounds about right.

So my girl, the one I'm devoted to? I've decided I really need to move on. Shes the most incredible being, but she's so straight so there's really no point, I'm just hurting myself this way. And it would hurt her too should this continue, so I decided that moving on was the best option, and so far, it's working =] I think that on some level I will always care for her protectively, but now it is much more platonic.

You see there was this other boy, Drew, and who I met at Eirtakon, who is great. And he showed romantic interest in me. I kind of liked him the whole time really, but it was always overshadowed by my girl. So I decided to give Drew a proper chance. He's sweet, kind, dorky. Exactly my type. And it worked, I really care for him. Not as much, I think, as he does for me, but only time can tell. I think it would all be rather smooth, if not for Antonio.

Yes, that's right, another boy is in the picture here. I want to remind everyone that for the past year and a half to 2 years, I was more or less asexual. But Antonio is a boy from my scouts. I always liked him, on a smaller level, ever since I joined this scout group. He's loud, a jokester, loves good music (classic rock - AC/DC, Led Zepp, Guns N Roses) and he is actually a big sweetheart too apparently, concidering he just spent the whole scout trip to Venice describing me as "carina" (cute) "dolcissima" (REALLY sweet) and "come zucherro" (like sugar). And he apparently likes me. It sure came across that way, concidering we were pretty much cuddling at a couple of points. -.-'

So, after all of this, I now have two amazing guys who like me. Drew is much more open about it, but he lives in Northern Ireland, which makes it awkward. But Antonio won't say anything about it, and told our leader (who was desperate to get us together) that the situation was "complicato" which it is. Concidering my Italian is not up to par.

And they are both homebodies. I'm going back to Ireland for Uni, and I'm definatly NOT moving to NI, so both of them are doomed. But I can't make a desicion yet. I can't bring myself to. It's all happened so fast that I am pretty overwhelmed. I don't like the situation at all. I kind of wish I was still asexual. Or even back worshiping my girl.

I haven't said her name at all, by the way, because I don't want it getting back to her. I should probably not mention these boys names, but I'm conciderably more concerned with if she found out, and it would just be so confusing trying to use aliases, becuase I would forget them, or refering to them as "him, he, the other guy" would just be frustrating for the reader.

HMM. I have been downloading DeathNote and Ouran High School Host club to make an AMV. My plan is to enter one into the AMV contest at Eirtakon next year. For those who don't know, an AMV is an Anime Music Video. I have some really good ones planned, but at the moment I don't have the appropriate equiptment. I'm working on it though =] but my downloads are taking a very long time. Almost a month in fact.

I still haven't been able to get World of Warcraft working. I finally managed to get the code in, but I haven't figured out how to create an account name :S I don't know what to do! I'm reinstalling at the moment to see if it helps, should be ready to try again in the morning !!

I have more I wanted to talk about, but I can't really at the moment. Just don't feel up to it.

I might have a kidney infection?

Ok, I'll stop. I'm going to play some Guitar Hero - My sister and I got BAND HERO for christmas, and I love it. My favourite song at the moment, Paralyzer by Finger Eleven is on it. I'm going to give Medium level a go tonight I think. I also got a years membership to Greenpeace, which is kick ass. It came with a teeshirt that says "Deforestazione ZERO" which is awwwwesome. Its the Italian branch of course =]